A book for anyone who has loved and lost and found the space in that loss to become the person they were meant to be.
When Rufus, Liz Weber’s oddly proportioned but adorable dog dies of old age, her life begins to unravel. She is forced to let go of the one constant in her life and move forward. Memory Card Full is a memoir of her life as a bartender, model and aspiring writer in Manhattan before and after Rufus. Without him, she is alone and broken-hearted and her life spirals downward while her friends and family struggle to understand what she is going through.
Prior to Rufus’s death, Liz Weber’s life was far from dull. Whether serving drinks to a gaggle of quirky regulars at a bar or walking around in her skivvies for extra cash as a lingerie model, she fought hard to remain a self-proclaimed “professional free spirit” and aspiring writer, even it meant enduring a lush for a manager or a cranky, Israeli-folk-music-loving boss. None of it really mattered as long as she had Rufus, who taught her about unconditional love in an untraditional way.
Memory Card Full is the story of Liz’s journey through grief, which leads to an unexpected encounter with the long unheard voice of the woman inside of her. On water skis at an adult sleepaway camp, Liz realizes that there are important things in life that Rufus’ love had caused her to avoid. Embracing her power and strength, she is finally able to accept that letting go of him is the best way to go on and find love for herself and others.
Frank, funny, and deeply moving, Memory Card Full is a memoir for anyone who has loved and lost and found the space in that loss to become the person they were meant to be.
When Liz Weber travels to Mexico, she wants to document parts of experience; when her camera tells her that the memory card is full, Liz must finally decide to delete some pictures of her dog Rufus that passed a year ago and fully come to terms with his death and the fact that she has finally moved on.
In Liz Weber's memoir, she presents a candid and humorous view about the role of her faithful canine companion in her life and then an honest look into the grief process and finally moving on after his death. Liz takes us through her trials and tribulations in the dating world, family squabbles and many jobs (now I know what fit models are!) as she presents the role that her dog, Rufus played in her life through that time. I could easily identify with her feelings as her beloved dog went through the aging process and having to make the decision of when to end his life.
The memoir is split in two; the first section taking place before Rufus passes and the second section after Rufus passes. I felt much more connected to the first part and enjoyed reading about Rufus as well as Liz's life and wacky bosses. The second part of the book deals with the grieving process and moving on. As we all grieve differently, there were some parts of this for me that I could not relate to. I appreciate LIz's honesty within her experience, however, I just was not expecting to read about intimate sexual encounters and drug use within a memoir about the loss of a dog.
This book was received for free in return for an honest review.
Liz Weber is a freelance writer living in Brooklyn. Her work has appeared online at Narratively, and Apartment Therapy. When she is not contributing to lifestyle websites, including Citypath and Bored and Thirsty or doling out dating advice to the urban female set on the popular website The Fat White Guy, she’s blogging about her past as a children’s party performer (she makes a mean balloon sword) and the time she drove her moped through a souvenir stand in Mexico. Her short story about working in a male strip club for women was featured in the 2009 Staten Island Arts Festival.
Visit Liz at her website.